Imagine having a blanket covering your entire body, but instead of providing a sense of comfort, it’s extremely heavy and the thought of moving it, a daunting task. Maybe you’re able to shift the bulkiness around a bit, but even that requires so much effort and strength, it leaves you feeling exhausted from each attempt. It feels as if the weight is inescapable and the darkness beneath it, blinding. Slowly, it’s suffocating you.
It traps you, immobilizes you and leaves you feeling like there is no escape from under it’s weight.
Depression has been a struggle for me throughout my life. There are times where I feel great and other times where I feel incapable of completing even the simplest of tasks. I have learned that although depression may always linger, there is a way to crawl out from under that blanket. There is a space to find fresh air, to see light, and to grab the hand of someone waiting on the outside to help pull you out.
It’s okay to ask for help; from a friend, a doctor, a therapist. Sometimes it’s too much to handle on our own and there is nothing wrong with seeking out help from others.
If you’re stuck under that blanket, it’s weight and darkness too much to handle, know that you are not alone. There are so many of us who are, or have, felt that suffocating pain. Even though you may not be able to see it at the moment, there are hands waiting to grab yours, willing to help pull you out into the light. Take it day by day. Seek help. Welcome grace. Your life is worth living, your story worth hearing. And someday, just maybe, you’ll be able to leave the blanket behind that kept you hidden for so long and be well on your way to grab the hand of someone else who’s trapped beneath theirs.