clouded.

These past two months have been, well, a lot. Christmas showed its unexpected stressors and expenses, my girlfriend and I moved into a new place, and a significant amount of my income was unexpectedly lost when I was let go from one of my employers.

Managing life lately has left me with a clouded mind. If something doesn’t go as I had hoped or planned, I end up feeling frustrated and angry. I shut down and struggle to function, while a never ending list of things to complete, races through my brain.

It’s hard for me to take a step back and breathe. I see all the little details and feel defeated, failing to see the big picture. I put the pressure of perfection into each to-do and end up feeling hopeless when the reality of imperfection comes through.

I have to remember life is complicated. It can be confusing and stressful, throwing a curve ball at the most inconvenient time. It’s important to take a moment, or maybe many, to focus on what matters; the overall, not the specifics that easily can overwhelm.

Life isn’t meant to be a smooth ride. It’s a full blown rollercoaster, complete with twists and turns, ups and downs. In times of stress and uncertainty, it’s important to remember that simple fact. Hold onto it. Trust it. Ride the ride.

So, here’s to a new year with new beginnings. Bring it on 2019. I’m ready for you.

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  1. Life often does not go as hoped for or as planned. We are not in control. The key to happiness is to manage what can be managed and leave the rest in God’s loving hands. Do not see events beyond our control as defeats. Breathe, savor the gift of life each day and thank God for His blessings.

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