To all my mothers: Happy Mother’s Day.
To my birth mom,
I know Mother’s Day is hard for you, just as it is for me. I grew up thinking about you on this day hoping you, too, were thinking about me. I wanted to thank you for bringing me into this world, tell you what was happening in my life, and ask you what was going on in yours. I want you to know that I love you and that you have a place in my heart that no one can ever replace. I often cry on Mother’s Day because we missed out on so many years. I wish you had stacks of cards with misspelled letters and stick drawings that I would have given you each year. I wish you could have been there for my school graduations and piano recitals, cheering me on, proud of my accomplishments. But, I know you now and although it’s been only 10 years since we’ve reunited, I am so thankful to develop a relationship and celebrate Mother’s Day with you.
To my adopted mom,
I’m sure you will doubt these words, but I hope you have a wonderful Mother’s Day. I hope that you think of me; I still think of you. We haven’t spoken in over a decade and I don’t know if we will ever have that opportunity again, that is up to you. I wish you would have been there when I graduated college, when I got my first job, when I had my breakdown. I wish I could call you up and talk, that you could see who I am today, and I could do the same with you. Mother’s Day brings these hurts to the forefront, and there still are days I long to have my mom back. But, I have chosen to forgive you and live a fulfilling life. I love you still, mom, and I wish you felt the same.
To all my other moms,
To the women that have been a mother to me throughout the years, Happy Mother’s Day. Some of you have been in my life for many years, while some only a few. I want to thank you. Thank you for supporting me, walking along side me, and believing in me when I felt so completely alone. Thank you for treating me as your own and letting me do the same. I have the word daughter tattooed on my arm, a collection of letters written by each of you, reminding me how much I am loved and cared for. I hope this Mother’s Day you feel loved and cared for much like you have made me feel. Thank you for loving me. I love you.