It’s been a little rough lately; outward stressors have caused inner conflict that have resulted in arguments, frustrations and a lack of patience. I have only focused on the negative, getting easily overwhelmed, as I mentioned in clouded, feeling as if I am forever caught in a whirlwind of anxiety.
I do not want to admit I’m struggling, I would rather try and put the blame on the circumstances and people in my life than to bring it inward. It’s much easier to see the faults in something, or someone, then to admit I have a barrage of my own.
I need to look in the mirror.
What is being reflected? What am I putting out in this world, what am I taking in? How am I letting circumstances affect the way I interact with the world around me?
Life will always contain periods of stress and overwhelming circumstances, but navigating these times with an inner honesty will be displayed through an outward reflection of understanding towards self and towards others.
So, I am taking the time to do a soul reality check, admitting my mistakes and wrongdoings and coming forward with them, in vulnerability, to the ones I have hurt. It is not an effortless undertaking to recognize shortcomings, but while acknowledging them, a more true and genuine self begins to appear in the reflection.
And slowly, the fog will begin to disappear on the glass and a clear reflection will come to focus. A reflection of authenticity, of honesty and of vulnerability.
A true reflection.